PRIDE!

GOD.

I struggled today. I was mean to some people. They deserved it in my opinion. They don’t know what I was going through, yet they behaved as if they wanted my strife to continue.

And through them, it did. I continued the wickedness and met their will.

I thought about how much it pleases me to beat a man acting like he thinks I’m pussy, until he sees red. Leave him leaking and smelling abandoned.

I thought about my promise to be better, think better, behave better. Betting one can get through the same ignorance, makes man er’ and use the power that rids families of god’s children who grow to men acting like they never experienced discipline.

GOD!

I’m just a man. I waked away trying to forgive them. But mostly wondering “were you playing a joke on me?” Hard as I’m trying, I wanted them to feel when I give up on forgiveness and peace.

I forgave myself. Now I forgive them.

Thank you for my wisdom and safety.

Thank you for not letting me suffer longer than I could take.