A Quick Word

Image From Boyz N The Hood

My version of your dreams are irrelevant.

But since there is no maturity age for emotions, I will always be hurt and aggravated if you give up on yours.

And.. I love you so much I would sacrifice mine so you could live yours. Not forever though, I am not a broken man, and I don't want to love with a vengeful heart.

I have a distrust for a-lot. Especially feelings. They betray me when I think about how I'm supposed to love and discipline. Sometimes, goddamn, lord forgive me I want to beat you into submission.

Because holy shit you make some bad ass decisions. Then I remember all of mine. Even now when I allow anger to linger for lessons that turn into wars of willpower to see whose anger can last longer, whose pride has more authority.

My sanity, care, empathy, compassion, all thoughts and emotions a father are supposed to have gets drained like an hourglass. Although time never runs out or fast enough on behaviors that limit my patience.

Put me in the psych ward because I love you like crazy.

If that's the one thing you get from my discipline. I did my job as A Man. A Father. A Masculine being that can't be neutered. I'll always demand your best and want you happy. That makes me a real mother fucker from the generation admired for opening doors for their family. Who took care of their children and grands, when a hard life was more than spoiled babies could stand.

Sometimes our home feels like a ward.

Negativity makes us psychic? You know why I ask! We hold each other to task before we act. We hold each other down the way ghetto birds bring joy, and warning signs to escape. They say positivity is the way. I say reality is the escape.

I hold a dealer's pain. Punishing and pushing to provide love and security, so family can one day be saved.

I love you like crazy and for the first time I may allow myself to understand why you behave like that...Me...

Be your own. own what and who you're becoming.

Are you still a virgin? The wrong goods can spoil you for the rest. Mental stimulation is supreme, godly ejaculation. Everyone should have that I don't give a fuck in'em. It's called ambition, real living.

That's the tradition I want you to carry. Never-mind ignorant thinking, from sinners portrayed as saints because they get more attention than a fake orgasm. Make sure you seduce for real connections.

I Love You Like Crazy.

Dad Joke

What did Cinderella say to Prince Charming?“Want to see if it fits?”

Music I'm Enjoying

Greentea Peng (TELL DEM IT'S SUNNY)

Movie I Recommend

Cooley High (1975)

Books

Professional Troublemaker by Luvvie Ajayi Jones

To all the Father's wondering HOW THE FUCK DO I DO THIS?

My advice is Just Don't Pull Out!