INTERNAL REVOLUTION

I am searching for a way to better myself. Skimming through the Bible, Quran, Kabballah, the Alchemist, 42 Laws of Ma’at, the 50th law. The Book of Enoch and every YouTube conscious and spiritual guru.

I’ve tried weed and meditation. Some days I want to get rid of everyone and everything good, so I don’t have to drug through the bad. I get distracted easily. That’s a polite way of saying fooled.

My bad habits are deceptively cool. They make my relationships hot and my love a headstone. I feel I get close enough to understand success. Then I stop and convince myself to be satisfied because I don’t want to fail.

That void is soothing. Nothing is given. Nothing is expected. Failure has no consequence. Until you see the life you created.