Heartbroken Heartbreaker
Art by REHone
The thrill of negativity is uplifting. No matter how it comes or who you come in, you feel the high before you come down.
That’s why I ask you to spend time being selfish. Selfishness holds families and love together. As long as you stay when it’s bad-and help get each other through. THEN you can leave. And maybe you won’t get looked at as a sucker.
I know that might Sound fucked up. But not as much as me wanting to fuck up everyone who tells me no, especially if we’re together, or in a relationship or love each-other. Then that makes me want to go fuck everyone else.
That’s why I just don’t ask. So, I don’t take anything personal. Because I want revenge for everything. That comes from not being selfish enough-or to say it so you don’t think I’m a lunatic, It comes from not taking time for myself.
---This is how I broke my own heart. I never took time for myself to find what I could do to help. I was just always on the hunt. Chasing Angels and their inferno.
I was spreading those wings that provide warmth and comfort. I was seeing visions of ecstasy and how wonderful the future and love could be.
There were a-lot moments like these where I ended up fucking myself. But there just ain’t no better feeling. It’s the male version of abortion, and abandoning his seed---our Plan B. It’s A gut emptying sonic boom.
It’s like taking a good shit after eating too much greasy food that makes you feel like a baby is trying to kick its way out. Then we can just wipe ourselves clean and walk away, and ignore, or admire the pain we caused.
That’s why you gotta to spend time being selfish. Selfishness holds families and love together. As long as you stay when it’s bad-and help get each other through. THEN you can leave. And maybe you won’t get looked at as a sucker.
I know that might Sound fucked up. But not as much as me wanting to fuck up everyone who tells me no, especially if we’re together, or in a relationship or love each-other. Then that makes me want to go fuck everyone else.
